Being Your Age
This week’s journal entry:
Describe
the most difficult thing about being your age.
By
Laura Black
Well, my current age is 46. I guess
the most difficult thing about being this age is that I don’t mentally feel
like I’m 46. In my mind, I feel like I’m much younger. So, I guess what’s hard
for me is my mind will think: I can do that. However, my body thinks different.
My mind says, “You can do that,” and I’m body says, “What the hell are you
doing?”
Over the years, my body has changed
in so many ways. I guess in some way it’s probably for the better. As a child
and teen, I was super skinny. In my early 20s, my body finally started to
transform for the better. I gained weight, but I looked like a normal person.
As a teen, I was constantly asked if I was anorexic. Those that truly knew me
knew this wasn’t true, but random people and many of my teachers would ask. I
always responded, “If you saw me eat, you would probably be grossed out.” The
amount of food I used to be able to eat was crazy. I had a super high metabolism,
though.
I have to say I was happy when I
stopped looking so skinny and finally put on some weight. The problem, though,
was that I had a hard time stopping my eating habits. That eventually led to me
becoming overweight. I struggled with that for years. My mind was still in the
skinny girl mode. It often became hard to do the things I used to do because my
body was not capable of doing everything I used to do as the skinny girl.
Over the years, I learned to adjust
my mindset with my body. It was a super hard process, though. Now, although I
wish I was a little skinnier than I am, I would never want to be that skinny
again. I’m accepting of my body and my weight. My problem now is that my mind
doesn’t believe I’m as old as I am. I want to do things I used to do at a
younger age, but it’s not always cooperating with me. I’m not old by any means,
but my body doesn’t always agree. So, I will continue to fight with my mind and
my body on my true age. I would like to think my mind will win and push my body
to stay young; however, I do have to be aware of my limitations from time to
time.
What about you? What’s the most
difficult thing about being your age?
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